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Wednesday, May 13, 2009

♥ 10:53 PM

Hi people.
Sorry but im not very enthu cauz im numbing myself..until that day comes.

Tuesday
In the morning,rushed down to the quadrangle,to find shuting and shaoyi there mugging.Mugged too...then announcement came to say no assembly because of temp taking.Flew up to the classroom.Took temp.36.8.not that bad.then,took exam.couldn't finish.more than 35 marks just....flew away.At the end of exams,hand shivered so much it was like,shaking the whole table.then,jo asked me if i finished the paper.i shook my head and turned to face the front.tears just flowed down my cheeks.nobody noticed me until Fitriyanee told Jo.then jo was desperately like,EH dun cry leh.u cry some more i slap u.my tears just kept flowing and flowing.she offered me a hug.i accepted it and cried more.went to the toilet to wash up after more crying.then,on the way back to the classroom,thought of ***'s threaten and cried again.I couldn't stop thinking.how it would affect my grades so drastically.and would have to wait for my death.I HAVE SEEN THROUGH YOUR TRUE COLOURS.then pulled myself together when Mdm Sha came to start the English paper.Done the paper.It was ok,except for the summary.If I count like seperately,I got like only 13 points.nvm.went to the bustop with jo.told her about ***'s threaten.I should have grown accustomed to it.she does that whenever its SA.but i can't.i didn't know why.the only reason i could think of is the love i have for PB.grew feelings for it.i calculated my average band for all the papers.Not that i noe the scores ald.but thinking very positively the highest score i could get for every subj except for geog.i knew i could'nt cry at home.i can't tell all these things to anybody.i can't give a good reason for why i cry.Scolding would be the result.so i closed myself up in my room and listened to emo music.ended up thinking again and started sobbing.a short cry.then started to mugg again.mugg like shit until i had a headache and was damn dizzy.went to take a rest on my bed.when i lie on my bed,i was like so tired.then brother came in to take my temp.37.3.i went to close the door and took my temp.37.4, 37.5, 37.6, 37.7 .then it dropped all the way down to 36.8.went to mug again.nth went into my head.emo again.mug.at least something did went into my brain.did the practice papers mdm sha gave us.got some question didnt know how to do.sms jie to teach me after her dinner.she ignored the part of after dinner and called to ans my qs.SO NICE~cleared like all the qns except for 1.needed for YongYi to teach me with his diagram.

Wednesday aka Yesterday
went early to mugg Chinese.reached school at about 6.45?went straight to the quadrangle.after a while about 7,jessica came,then belle and xinyi,then jie and wan xin.took out the qn paper and went back to mugging until YongYi came with his diagram.SO CUTE.they taught me how to do.Thank you YongYi and Jie!understood and went back mugging.After all those stuff.Chinese paper.It was quite hard.Then had our like 1 hour break.used it to mug for science.mugged until mdm sha came.the paper was NOT THAT EASY like what mdm sha had told us it would be.*pouts*.Some questions I asked Jie THE NIGHT BEFORE came out!!whoa!I SO LOVE JIE.the question that YongYi taught didnt come out though.
i've decided.im not going to continue.im going to LET GO.let nature take its course.it wouldn't be so difficult to break free when that day comes.
Went home.Lax-ed a while,then went to check with Faithyy Jie some Science Qns from the paper.I know its stupid but just to be safe,u know?That SUBLIMATION.hope im correct.teacher never even touched on it!nvm.went to help bro with his Chinese,then went to mugg.did the prac paper Ms Tay gave us.Or the soon gonna be Mdm Tay.HAHA.still,congrats to her!went to look through Sec 1 Maths Textbook.Found that I haf stml,i've forgotten a lot of things on Sec 1 Syllabus ler!nid memory trigger.lol.

TODAY
Well,reached school early.it was raining.then went to canteen,since quadrangle's corridor lights were not switched on.saw Jia Hui,talked until lightning alert system came on.then mugged.went to find shuting to ask her to accompany me home today.she agreed.but she did not tell me Bryan was tagging along.SIAN TIO.maths paper 1 started.It was hard.not soft at all.like 8 marks flew away.than maths paper 2.it was softer by quite a bit.4 marks still flew away...SIAN.
went to look for shuting.found Bryan.answered shuting how to do a maths sum in the paper on the board.came across a sheet of paper writing about Oral stuff.Went home.changed and went out to Lot 1 help my mum buy groceries and stuff.saw many many people!Saw ayesha,rachel and faithyy!Saw jessica chua too!the bpghs der.last time from swiss.cant believe she still remember me.then went home.then im here,blogging.

-THIS PURPLE CHERRY IS BREAKING DOWN ANY MOMENT.-
Awaiting my death.
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